I don't like to drive so I was surprised to find, sometime in my 30s, that I enjoy writing there; I park with a view of water or crooked trees, keep a backpack in the passenger seat with my favorite notebooks and pens. In winter, I bring a sleeping bag, sometimes even a pillow so I can dream.
In my car, I don't worry about what I haven't done; I don't think about unpaid bills or unwashed dishes; I don't accidentally answer the phone or find that a neighbor has stopped by to discuss a mountain lion; I don't discover that the washing machine is oozing a mysterious swamp water.
When I was in college I wrote in my dorm room, on my bed, which became an island of thought. Or I went to the library and sat in a big chair with stacks of books around me. I preferred a window, if I could find one, where I might watch the light shift and gather.
In my early 20s, I had a writing fellowship on Cape Cod and I wrote in my cottage like the other poets: tea on the stove, a cat in my lap. Afterwards, I taught high school English and, for a few years, I wrote in the teacher's lounge, near the Xerox machine, which sounded like a mechanical ocean.
When my daughter was a baby, I wrote at home; while she slept, I ran my pen over a new idea. Afternoons, her toys on the floor, l composed drafts with an old typewriter on which all words became a noise. Then, she went to school for a few hours a day, and I tried working in a nearby cafe where I could not seem to have a clear thought; the music was busy with lyrics; people were trying out their new cell phones and I listened to them planning baby showers or gossiping about a neighbor's weight gain. After a terrible hour, my notebook full of nothing, I wandered to my car where I found, with relief, that I could write.
I remember the misery of learning to drive; I was worried by the idea that two lanes of traffic were sometimes separated by a vague line on a winding road; I was terrified of bridges and not quick enough on interstates; my blinker went on blinking long after I made a turn.
Now, I'm glad I learned how to do it. Driving and writing have taken me places I didn't know I wanted to find; I balance my notebook against the steering wheel, and the lines inside are tiny highways.