Dear Lord, what can I make of my country?
Only what it has made of me: a believer in nonsense
as the sixth sense; a squirrel with blue forepaws;
one of the hungry mouths of dusk.
Dear Lord, lend me a hand. I need to stop
the ministers from mumbling
about suffering and salvation, suffering
as salvation. I need to return to the day before
I yawned, and courage leaped out of my mouth.
My country, bent on destroying my country,
why do we buy vodka by the case?
Because it tastes like embalming fluid?
My country, bent on restoring my country,
shall I give you the shirt off my back,
and the skin, and the yellow fat?
My country is waging war against my country,
and winning handily, and getting trounced.
In honor of my country beating and my country beaten,
in honor of the murdered halls and murdered paper
and blasted apples, I propose the truce of the wren
and its reflection—the ignorant, innocent wren—
perched on the birdbath. I propose the sacred union
of assonance, metaphor, the compound noun,
of the boxer and border collie bound inside
the family mutt. I propose all-out surrender:
to the silent mutations of clouds like changing minds.
To the bloodless little death that is a glance in the mirror.
To the lobbed projectiles of slow-pitch softball
in June. I wave the white flag of this page.