Earlier this afternoon I was banisher of dust
bunnies and scrubber of toilets. Now I’m
curator of decaying Polaroids—status
quo whenever I watch my mother-in-law.
Each day dementia maroons her on a new island.
I’m pointing to faded snapshots of grandkids
and sounding out their names, syllable
by syllable. All these children came out of me?
No, I say, out of your daughter. And now
I’m pointing to countries that have evaporated
overnight. In this photo, she’s riding
an elephant in Thailand, in this one crossing
a footbridge in the Andes made of grass
and llama spit. I had houses in all these places?
No, I say, but you visited them once.
Her mind is a tumbleweed but she can still
belt out Jolly Old St. Nick. And does, her way
of lightening the mood, never mind she’s
six months and several holidays too late.
She nods off, and I let her. What else can I do?
I’m no medic or deep-trauma therapist,
just a washer of milky cups and keeper
of the thermostat. He who retrieves junk mail
from the freezer, frozen peas from the dryer,
he who hides pills in cherry yogurt and spoons
them into her mouth. Also a voodoo sage
who remembers the old cures, like throwing
open a window. Let raw sunlight cleanse
a dying room, remind her that the cool
mercy washing over us is called a breeze.